I was reading on CNN.com today, an article titled:
The story goes:
Unemployed, single and apparently fed up with criticism from her mother, a 29-year-old Orangeburg, South Carolina, woman suffocated her two toddlers with her bare hands before strapping them into car seats and submerging her car in a river, authorities said Tuesday.
Here’s what I find the most sad about this:
However, he said, “this wasn’t a hardened criminal. This was a young lady in trouble, in trouble in more ways than she realized.” Duley has no previous criminal history, he said.
More ways than she realized. She was broke, unemployed, and living with her mother, who from reports, was a strict, critical woman. Not only that but the children she killed were 2 and 1. Clearly, to me, this looks like this was a woman on the edge, and perhaps she has some undiagnosed postpartum depression. It’s one of those gut feelings…sort of the, takes on to know one diagnosis.
She didn’t lie to authorities. She didn’t run away. She simply suffocated her ‘problems,’ buried them in the water and told authorities what she did. If she was a criminal, someone who premeditated this, I feel as if she would have run away and denied she had her hand in this.
A person full of remorse would tell the truth. A person who wasn’t mentally stable would be honest. Sure, she changed her story a few times, but bottom line: A Mother. Suffering.
In the time I spent with PPD, I had never once imagined hurting my child. I more or less imagined hurting myself. But during that time, I spoke with many mothers who had or were suffering and they have reported feeling the urge to hurt or neglect their child. I had read a blog, where the mother openly reported she wanted her child to run into a steak knife she was holding. Instead, she got help and was on the up and up.
For those who have never suffered with PPD, or never been around someone who had been honest and spoke freely about their suffering, that sounds horrific and shocking. Truthfully? That didn’t surprise me. I felt so bad for the woman writing and could feel her pain. It was clearly palpable.
But how many women out there suffer in silence? How many women imagine hurting their child because they don’t know what else to do? How many women actually do?
I’m not saying Shaquan Duley has PPD. I’m not even saying she’s not wrong. Anyone who kills their child is wrong. There’s no right about it. But how could this have been prevented? Why did it have to come to this? Clearly, she needed help. One way or another.
The economy is tough, people are jobless, families are going hungry. Something’s gotta give.
“Whatever compelled Shaquan to do what she did … Lord please be with her,” said Simpson. “I cannot judge Shaquan. I will not judge her. But God, be kind to her.”