Not better, not worse.
Today I had my follow up ultrasound from the previous one done during my emergency room visit. I was having some really high hopes because I only actively bled for a few hours. Still, a few hours too many. I figured, I’m super fit, I’m super healthy, I’m a lean, mean clotting machine.
My ultrasound tech was fantastic. She told me that, yes, my bleed was huge. She actually had to do a double take, and then pull it up on the monitor to see the photos. She said she’s not often impressed, but this one was impressive. She did, however, say she’s seen bigger.
So I’m only sort of awesome.
She immediately got baby on the screen and found the heartbeat at a solid 158. Baby looked pretty awesome. Heart beating, stomach filling, bladder emptying, two hemispheres on the brain. Baby also was growing right on target. One of the big fears with a SCH is that the hematoma will then cut off blood supply to baby causing a delay in growth.
Not this kid.
I did, however, learn something new.
See, apparently last time when I was looking at the bleed on the screen, I only noticed the GIANT BLACK BLOB on the screen below baby, that I didn’t even realize that baby was in fact, surrounded. On three of the four sides, with the fourth side being placenta.
So. Let’s get down to it.
Bad news: baby’s still surrounded by blood. Because of this, it makes less protection for the gestational sac and can therefore cause a premature rupture of membranes. Awesome.
Good news: the placenta is in no way, shape, or form affected by the bleed. The bleed stops at the placenta and it’s been noted twice now that the placenta is pretty strong and intact. So that gets a yay!
My OB called me very quickly to let me know that the bleed is thinning out. It’s no longer that giant black blob, rather a thin black string. Still there, still omnious, but not as bad. She reassured me that I’m doing OK and that her bets are still on baby.
I’m to continue with my modified rest regimen, and am still not allowed to have anything to do with exercise of any form. I was also told to not work at the hospital until my appointment next week. (That I hated to call off for. I really miss work in any form. I can’t get it at the gym, now I can’t get it at the hospital. What gives!) I should, however, be back on for the following week, so yay for that.
I just want to get back into a normal routine. I won’t have another follow up ultrasound until about 2 or 3 weeks from now. At that time we’ll be able to hopefully see it resolving more. My OB said that she’s seen these bleeds take up until week 20 to really go away.
So. For the next questionable amount of weeks, I’m still going to be nervous. I’m still going to occasionally cry. This still isn’t the ideal situation and I’d chalk it up to shitty. But it could have always been worse. And I’m damn fortunate that I’m still on the positive end of the spectrum.
Anything can happen between now and baby time. Anything. But I think that goes for any pregnancy, really. I just happen to know what my odds are as opposed to others. It is what it is. That’s all I can say. So for now I’ll continue what I’m doing, I’ll continue to occasionally freak out, and I’ll occasionally get excited. I’m fortunate enough to have been feeling the little baby moving for the past two weeks, and when you’re only at 13 1/2 weeks, that’s something.
Thank you for the continued support, kind words and prayers. Baby’s getting them all.
Katie Ett has dubbed baby: CBEW, and I pronounce that as C-Boo. (It stands for cutest baby in the entire world.) I just hope to God that I get to find out if that’s in fact true.